I think I'm on the precipice.
I don't think it is dangerous, but it may be painful. I don't think God desires to put me in pain, but desires something grander a molding of sorts. You know, when you experience pain, but it teaches you a lesson?
I'm there, perhaps. Or, maybe I'm being dramatic.
I think of my expectations, connections, and desires and realize that some go unfulfilled or unmet. Really though, is that a bad thing? I think of how God's plan is greater and how He has surprised me time and time again with His plans and goodness.
Thinking to the New Testament, I remember the texts when Jesus claims to be THE Messiah, King of KINGS, Lord of Lords, THE son of GOD...And, I think, the Jews of the time did not expect their Messiah to be poor, one who serves, or who heals, but instead someone who takes over and reigns the Earth. Yet, I believe, that what God had in store was much greater than the Jews could have ever planned for their Messiah.
Makes me think, do I look at my life that way?
I plot out the steps and when God shows me the plan, I think God, that's not what I had in mind or expected and I'm not sure about your plan. Hmm. Makes one think.
I'm hoping I soon jump off this precipice into the trust of God's plan.
