So, I thought I would not be blogging until I started my internship. However, I felt an urging that I should blog today. Thoughts are churning.
I will be honest, I have had my doubts about support raising (not the idea of it, but how/if it will be completed). I wonder, who doesn't?? It has been frustrating, putting work into it and not knowing what is going to happen. I remember this work is not in vain. There is PURPOSE. I feel deep deep deep down that God is urging me...
Do you believe I can provide?
Do you know I own all?
Apparently, I doubt the Almighty. I was so confident before. What is different, God or me?
Twice today, TWICE, I heard the story, although familiar to me, about the crowd, two fish, five loaves of bread, the disciples, and Jesus. The story can be found in Matthew 14, Mark 6, and Luke 9. The disciples doubt that Jesus can provide food for thousands of people, yet He does it. Not only that, but people were satisfied, and there was a surplus of food. Why do I question when I have seen personally how God provides TIME and TIME again?
I also feel prompted.
Do you TRUST that this is my plan for you?
I know it is, but this doubt is frustrating. I don't want to doubt God's plan.
So, here it is...God, I can't promise I won't doubt anymore. However, God, I will be obedient and trust You to carry me, because I'm not strong enough.
